TWD Double Chocolate Cookies

These puppies were like a beautiful chocolate cookie/brownie hybrids. They are dangerous and must be rationed.

I was starving when I got home, even though I had an apple at work. See, that donut didn't do much for me.

While I was cooking dinner I had some cranberries and pecans.

Dinner was burnt teriyaki pork chop and broccoli. Ugh I feel like I always burn this kind of stuff. It's the sauce!

Now having some sugar free cocoa before bed.

Overnight Oats

Overnight oats taste like when you get a yogurt and granola parfait that has been premade and all the granola is mushy. Actually I hate it when that happens, but these are pretty great. You get the oatmeal taste, but the yogurt is there too.

Before:

The weird thing about this is that most recipes I found online did not really suggest heating it up in the morning. I don’t want to eat cold oatmeal, even if it does taste like a parfait. I heated mine up for one minute this morning and might heat it longer next time.

Dinner last night and lunch today was chicken stew, which I didn’t realize that I forgot to photograph until right now. Another Ghirardelli square for dessert.

I also had a Krispy Kreme donut at a meeting. I sort of regret that, even though I should still be within my calorie goals. Since I cut out caffeine, I can really feel the effects of sugar and even fat. It’s probably just not the best idea, even though it’s delicious.

Gotta Remember

I am definitely not as good at the photos-of-food thing as I used to be.

Snack in the afternoon yesterday:

Note to self, find a better PM snack for work. These I got because I had a "free" $5 for the cafeteria so I stocked up on granola bars.

Dinner by Gus's request was tomato soup and grilled cheese. This is my standby recipe for tomato soup, but this time I used crushed tomatoes instead of whole and it really threw off the texture. Too thick.

I got this baby in my Birch Box. One square gone. Like a Thin Mint. Yummmmmmm.

Went to the gym this morning. I really need to figure out a good oatmeal routine for breakfast. I made a really sad version this morning and then went the gym to renew my membership. That workout felt really good. I did 30 minutes on elliptical and then some arm weights.

Work lunches are so dangerous. I got a chef salad from a catered lunch and ate most of it, but only about a tablespoon of the ranch dressing, none of the other. There was also a brownie involved...

I’m feeling pretty good today. I’m trying to force myself to drink a lot of water, but I’m so bad at it. Work doesn't like it when we have drinks out on our desks, but I always do anyway, unless there’s an inspection going on or something. The joys of working in a hospital.

I switched my calorie goals to stay stagnant and not flex with fitness. I don’t think it’s doing me any favors to be eating all of the calories that I burn. I need a deficit. 

Fresh Start

I almost completely abandon this blog so often, it's amazing that I don't just start over again. But I think it's time to roll it out and start over with what I had started with: documenting my eating and lifestyle, making myself accountable, and being able to look at what I am doing and hopefully see progress.

I started this blog in 2009 because I wanted to lose 7 pounds. I was 137 pounds and wanted to get down to 130. Reading this now is almost a smack in the face, as 137 is the goal that Spark has now set for me to achieve as my ultimate weight loss goal.

I got married in June and my weight was the highest it has ever been at 160. The whole thing is frustrating to me because you're supposed to lose weight for your wedding. Well, I was way too stressed to lose weight or care about the weight that was piling on. But as soon as I got back from our honeymoon, I realized that this is a huge problem and I seriously needed to lose about 20 pounds. I've lost about 5 pounds since August, but it's still not enough.

I got some lab results back last week and my LDL is high. This really freaked me out. I still think of myself as healthy, but now I feel like I'm not and I need more work. It's a total wake up call.

I've been tracking my calories and workouts on Spark, but like I said, it's not enough. I need to get nitty gritty and start posting everything and holding myself accountable. I need to rejoin the gym and stop lying to myself that 30 minute walks with the dog are enough.

It's time to buckle down. Here it goes...